Ever since I moved my blog to .info, I have been in a dilemma of sorts. I used to rant and go all emo in my personal blog which was not redirected to here. And I started the habit of reading blogs yes I was a blogger who never even read her own blog.. not to mention other blogs.
And after reading Suanie, KY, ShaolinTiger, Cheesie and Kim‘s blogs (and alot more la.. you want me type all meh) I was slumped into despair. These people can write wei. All I do is write 2 instructions per picture. Not grammartically and spello procinaounciation correct also.
But then again, I was doing blog design for Ellie Chee and we followed each other in twitter. She tweeted,” A blogger does not need to give any explanation or reasons for anything she writes in blog, twitter or anywhere else.”
Here I was thinking, what the fuck. I shouldn’t give 2 fucks. or 5 fucks worrying bout 2012 when it’s just a disaster in movie and not in real life.
I am gonna go crazy next month. Here is what I am gonna do. I am gonna go gym to gain some weight to look like a fitness model. I will eat more rice (bitch) and then I am gonna go take vocal lessons.
Progress will all be blogged, can’t wait to look good.. can’t wait can’t wait to be able to sing and serenade cocks out of pants.
I have nothing to show nao but a Biology class Skeleton and my voice is badly infused with cigarettes’ leftover friction.
Here is how sicken-ly depressing my life is right naos. I wake up at 4 or 5 PEE AM. I take 5 steps to my computer room to work. I stay there until my backbone and wrist scream for help. Then I take a depressing 3 steps walk to the balcony and look at the inviting black sky. I work until 4 am then I go sleep.
You people asking for price quotation. I work 12 hours a day slaving over your measly few hundred bucks job. Please pay me more. I dying already. With my portfolio and reputation as the only blog designer in Tanah Melayu (not I declare one) I should be earning big bucks liao.
You find me one web/blog designer and their portfolio, then compare it to mine. Then you see their prices. Then you will know you need to pay me more. I tired di. I am not doing blog design anymore after the next batch of jobs. Even if I die of hunger and lack of money I won’t take anything that is not priced equivalent to the worth of my work and my TIME. My precious precious TIME.
You can check my facebook and see where I go everyday. I don’t go out. I cry all everything all!!!!! I KILL YALL!!! T_T
Tired. I need a manager. I don’t care how many percentage you cut out of my pay as long as I am paid good in terms of the time I spent. I dunno how you market me, you wanna work me until I die I don’t mind as long as I am paid well. I am very hardworking one!!! I want my blardy iPhone. I want iPad iPad iPad iPad. Please email me, I even have online project management setup for you di : whoever you are. T_T
Comments (17)
The blues of a designer. :sigh:
Get more rest and eat more rice k? Rice makes you feel good. (sometimes). 😆
I’ll try hard… i wanna be happy T_T T_T sob sob
LOL! Means more rice for you in the future! 😆
well.. i think all bloggers blog for a reason.. some may be good and some may be otherwise.. but no matter what, it’s up to each and every blogger themselves to determine which path their blog heads =)
it’s difficult when blogging is no longer a presentation of personal honest thoughts when you need to take into considerations the image that you want to portray, keeping politics at bay and privacy as well. It can be a real writer’s block. I dunno how yall do it. 😮
Haze.. ur biting peach eheh blushberry is sibeh cute.
Not just the courage to blog, and also the courage to post your own pictures all over your blog also needs courage! You see, I never post my own proper pictures on my own blog ever, ahaha.
I believe we always needed a way to release stress. I found out that I can easily become depressed if I keep hiding and enduring things, even if it’s just some small stuffs. I’m not a talkative person to strangers, but I don’t think I’m a quiet person too — I always have a lot of things going on in my mind, and writing/blogging/drawing etc ways are to tidy up the mess that keeps going round in my head, and I usually feels a bit better after that.
I hope you feel better too.
Well, honestly I think you’re a really capable person. Really la, the environment that I grew up in as well as the people and friends around me, kinda continually influencing me to become a timid person. But I did made some decisions before in my life because I really wanted a change. But now I feel like I’m slowly reverting back to my old self.. that just sucks isn’t it?
Then I sometimes thought of you, then you’re actually like a uh.. how to say ar, like a role model to me, you’re confident, daring, strong and you strive for success; then I feel so ashamed of my own stupid worries and lack of guts.
So keep fighting! and I think you’ll be rewarded nicely for your effort too, probably in other ways that we didn’t expected it
Let’s work hard…you become a better 3d artist n i’ll become a better blogger!! We can do this together. One of the amazing thing bout blogging is I get to know some great friends.. Keeps me going. 😆
So means I need to pays you more wtflux.
BTW your CAPTCHA freaking hard to get right.
VIP club got pwiwiwedges one ma guai lou. I heart y’all all everthing all
i also want more pay. my boss treating me like their PA but giving me measly pay.
fcuk lor. give me compliments and then expect me to work even harder. bitch.
i want pay and bonus. XD
cheer up and work hard la! sure got reward in the future wan~
Yea bosses need to realize that it’s not all profit. We gotta eat too. Money should be divided more logically n not so monarchy-like where the top always get a much massive portions compared to the people that actually does the work.
cheer up mao. i haven’t seen you in ages. when i was scanning your blog, the first thing i saw was a recent post about you going for surgery and not able to blog for 5 days. then i went catatonic. then i realised the url salah. i went to blushberry.net instead of .info.
what the hell. HAHA. that is funny.. i might be changing to blushberry.my already.. n changing to wordpress. joomla sucks 3 fucks.
Hey
Your blog has an unique content, i.e. giving makeup tutorial. This makes it stands out from the crowd as most Asian bloggers talk about their life and what not. This is also what keep most of the readers coming back to your blog. 🙂 Being strong in language is not a pre-requiste to be a blogger. As long as your content is useful (giving us makeup tips), readers will keep returning to your site! 🙂
yeh but funny how people now likes to scroll instead of clicking. probably clicking opens alot of tabs. makes things messy.
but my kinda content dun really categorize itself as a blog but more on a blog-a-zine. something like that.. still wondering how to work around that.. thanks for the comment, it keeps me going 😀
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